I was on my way to an event at the elementary school where I am student teaching and my brother came in with the mail. He tossed everything on the table and I saw a letter from Great Lakes. Immediately I dropped everything in my hands and ripped open the envelope... it was my first letter from my boyfriend who is at the Great Lakes Boot Camp!

He said that he wrote a letter everyday but they ripped them all up so he couldn't send them. He also says he is having a lot of fun... i'm telling you he loves getting worked like a dog. (I don't get it!)

I can't even describe the feeling I had when I was reading his letter, it was a mixture of sadness, optimism and love. Everyday that he is gone and my feelings grow stronger I know that this is the right thing to do and we are meant to be together. I support him in what he is doing and so very proud. I talk about him constantly, dream about him everynight and write him a letter everyday. I couldn't be happier (well, I would be if I could see him everyday) but I am so satisfied with him as a person that I am okay with not seeing him for long periods of time. I trust in him and how he feels about me and hopefully he trusts in me just as much. I know things will happen the way they were meant to be, so I am not worried....

His best friend and I are having dinner with his parents tomorrow. It is going to be nice to be in his house again; I might even grab another comfy sweatshirt from his closet! 

 Two weeks down, Seven to go.

Thanks to those of you who wrote me (especially airdawn). Hearing your stories just reassures me even more that I want to be with him and it is completely possible.

I finally received his mailing address so I can send all of those letters and start writing more! "A letter a day keeps the sadness away!" I know he needs the reassurance that I am still here, full of love for him.

I am going out with his best friend and his parents next week for dinner. So EXCITED!!! This will help me a lot. Just knowing that there are other people that care about and miss him just as much as I do.

Well... I am going to start writing another letter now!  

This entire Military world is new to me.

My boyfriend left for boot camp a week ago and then is going to  Coronado in January for BUD/S. I know it is going to be tough and lonesome for me but I am excited for him and extremely proud. This is what he has wanted to do with his life and will not be satisfied any other way. As much as I mean to him, I know that the SEALS will always come first, that is something I am just going to have to deal with. (I am okay with that) My friend just moved to Oceanside (for the second time) to move with her husband who is returning from Iraq. Seeing how she does it gives me so much hope and strength for mine and my boyfriends future.

Sometimes, for a split second, I think... "Is this worth it?" and I really feel in my heart that I want to be with him, through everything. I am blessed to have him in my life. Although I may  not be able to see him for months at a time, knowing that he cares about me is all I need to get through the day. I miss him already and it has only been a week, but it will make our relationship stronger in the end. And I can focus on my goals and dreams while he is focusing on his.

Right now I don't know any one going through the same situation as I am but I hear the support system for military significant others is amazing. I can not wait to be apart of that and have people around me that understand what I am experiencing.