Alright, I'm not completely sure why I am typing this to begin with. Let me give you a little back ground of myself. I'm a Navy brat and proud of it. My dad retired as a Senior Chief after 21 years in, therefor I was born in Idaho, moved to New York, down to Virginia where I grew up, And 5 or so years ago we moved back up here to New York. Which yes I understand I had it easy compared to some kids who have had to move to europe and places along those lines.

I've always had a tenacious mentality and I loved to get in fights when I was younger. I love to workout and I live to hit my punching bag.  I've learned over the past 4 years of high school that it isn't right to fight. So I began to put my efforts into something else..wrestling. I loved the sport and I loved the challenge that came with it. My coach ran our practices like college practices and he repeatedly told us that we train harder than anyone in the section. I loved hearing this. I would go out for runs and bike rides and I put alot of extra hours in the gym but I really wasn't a good wrestler. It just wasn't my niche? But the brotherhood was great. The feeling of superiority over the rest of the students walking through the hallway wearing a "Win Ugly" T-shirt.

So sometime when I was in my sophmore year I was messing around on the internet looking up workouts and stuff like that for the following couple weeks. I came across a blog that was a Navy SEAL workout. It ended up being part of the stew smith workout and I went into the gym the following day and began the workout. 4 weeks later I felt significantly stronger. So I began looking into the Navy SEALS. I'm more passive, and like to read more than write on the forums. I've read The Lone Survivor and cried. I never cry, but I felt for Marcus. I read that book over a period of 3 days, I couldnt put it down.

But recently I've been getting frustrated, which really isn't hurting me too much because I workout harder out of complete anger. My father won't sign my contract, he's been dragging it on and on. I'm 17 so you know the drill. I've wanted this for 3 years. I've been attending DEP meetings and have been talking to a recruiter for about a year and a half! But he keeps insisting that I'm going to change my mind. I understand that he is afraid of me going into combat etc but I'm getting so irritated. I'm worried about not getting a chance to go to BUD/S for another 3 years or some crazy time like that. The time it's going to take to process is really getting to me. I can't stand being in this town, yet because of how long my dad is waiting I wont be able to get outta here for another year or so? Apparently I impressed my recruiters enough to introduce me to the recruiter in charge of the state. Why can't he see this is what I want? It's just so frustrating.

But I'll never give in. I'll wait forever to get my chance. I'll train everyday until then too.

Well sorry for my long and unnecessary post.

I just needed to vent a little.