DATE: 02/25/2009 22:30:55 / MOOD: sore
Hello, my name is Wayne and i am a bit perplexed and overwhelmed. I want none other than to join the Navy and be a diver since i was little, and started getting into the idea that i wanted to become a SEAL; in a big way. I started training extremely hard, over about 2 years (14 & 15) up to the point where i was at 99 push ups in 2:00 and 104 sit ups in 2:00 and was blazin fast at the 1.5 mile and the 4 mile run. This thought and feeling of becoming something great incubated in me until i decided that was what i was really going to do. Later on, i heard about the USNCC (US Naval Sea Cadet Corps) and thought, "what a great way to prepare me for the Navy!"
WRONG. I was in the NSCC for a few months and hated it. My battalion was a bunch of 11 year old delenquents that i had to baby sit the whole time, and there was no time for learning anything, and barely any time for PT. So, i gathered up my balls and stayed with it until i had the opportunity to do the 2 week boot camp that i had always wanted to do. 700 dollars of my own hard earned money later, i arrived in Chicago, and boot camp was a blast. i had the greatest time of my life there among kids my own age from different battalions around the US. One of the coolest moments of my life that still sends chills down my spine was the big "Bravo Zulu!" that i got from my CO at the graduation. But, when i came back, it was the same old story. I left the battalion a couple of months after boot camp. I had heard about the SEAL cadet corps, and the training in Virginia, but i didnt have the money to do it, and didnt want to take care of those brats every month until then, so i decided to leave, which was an extremely hard decision for me because it goes against my nature to quit something i have started. It was all downhill from there. I still wanted to be a SEAL, but there was nothing left for me to do to fuel my motivation. over about a year i went along way from the person i used to be. I was partying and getting bad grades, becoming less responsible and letting down my parents, while my fins gathered dust and my bike rusted. The only thing that kept me from becoming a f%/*# up was offseason football. A major turning point was in November 08' when i was "talking" to this girl (at my school "talking" means courting a boy/girl before you go out with them). I guess someone told her something that i did, and she said- exact words here, "I don't want to be with a guy like that." Wow, a guy like that.... that really made me think about who i had become over the past year. I immediatley ditched my loser friends who i had been hanging out with, and went back to hang out with my old friends. It never felt better. Last month my friend Will and I (Will wishes to become a ranger) have gotten into crossfit, and i have been riding my bike to school every day 13.4 miles there and 13.4 miles back. I have changed my decision though, instead of going to BUD/s right out of high school i want to go to college first and major in psychology. Also, my motivation has been renewed and i feel i am finally getting back on track and back to my normal crazy as hell PT fanatic self. Sort of. Ever since i left the USNSCC i feel discouraged as to what to expect from the Navy. I hope that it offers everything i need for "motivation fuel" and i want to get a fair chance at becoming a SEAL. My ASVAB scores are great, but my grades from my 1st semester as a junior are less than hot because of my dumbass parade. I know that i will do well in the PT portion, but what about the selection proccess? i am confused as to what goes into selecting a BUD/s candidate. Will my skeletons come back to haunt me? As you can tell this is a major issue with me, and it would be greatly appreciated if i could get some help from a person who has lived thier dream.
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